My Moody Menopausal Messy Mind
Well hell, up at the butt-crack of dawn - 5:10 in the a.m.!
Why? Because I sleep 6 hours no matter what time I go to bed. Ugh
Wait, Does anyone say butt-crack of dawn anymore?
I’m grateful to get at least that much uninterrupted sleep. But waking up this early makes me feel more tired than usual for some reason. Well, menopausal fatigue is no joke!
I forgot to put on a new estrogen patch on Monday, maybe that has something to do with my sleep pattern being a little off. Is that menopausal forgetfulness?
Who knows.
They certainly could make a funny little sitcom around my moody menopausal messy mind and my teenagers moody hormonal sass that’s been goin down lately. Geez.
Anyway, here I sit, coffee in hand while my mind races with all the things that I get to do today. Wondering if I’ll even accomplish a tenth of it. Here we are with those menopausal racing thoughts.
Sure I’ve made the list and checked it twice. But, I know I’ll choose naughty over nice. You know, now that I have acquired a new healthy Substack addiction. Menopausal procrastination perhaps?
I’ll still do all the necessities to get by on this dreary, grey, chili day in May. Yes, May. Ugh, f’ing northern Michigan. I mean, I’m so grateful to have a roof over my head.
I’m slowly and only partially accepting the menopausal weight gain that we’ve all been warned about. But, how did I not know about how itchy my ears would be during menopause?!
UGH
It’s that rise and shine 5:10 B.S. that got me all up in a tizzy today, but sure do appreciate you listening to me ramble about my moody menopausal messy mind.
Back to your regularly scheduled day of bliss and blueberries.
But first… tell me someone else out there can relate. I cannot be alone with my menopausal isolation here. Do you at least experience these darn itchy ears?
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Right? When I read your post, I thought about how similar we are on many levels. Soooooo butt-crack is still in use l? And yes, we shall meet at that time again.
Figured this sleep thing is a modern invention. Had to get us lined up to start the school process to get us ready for the 9-5 B.S.
Good to know post menopausal weight gain is a myth cause I’ve not made it there yet. I really can’t blame the weight gain completely on menopause. Life circumstance, depression, CPTSD play a part in it also. I remember my mom gaining some weight during menopause and some of it coming off post menopause. It’s one of the reasons I’m somewhat accepting it.
I must say that the journey to took me on with your story really touched me. I hope to incorporate some of that into my writing some day. The kiddo and the roommate situation is what I’ve longed to add without knowing how to. Some day.
Thank you for sharing! I know why you like my writing - yours feels familiar. Shall we meet again at the butt-crack of dawn? Yes, I too experience the menopausal sleep pattern. Did you know that the 8-hour thing is a modern invention? In medieval times, they apparently slept biphasic... 7P until 2/3A and then again... when you got tired.
It's all made up. So if it's all made up, then I can sleep from 6 am to 8 am on the regular. I sleep when I sleep, and I don't when I don't. It works for me.
Postmenopausal weight gain is a myth by the way. I do think your needs change, but you ain't destined to be plump. I was plump all my life. I'm not now, but I don't eat much any more. I'm not as interested in it as much as I used to be.