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As much as I joke about my disassociation in my every day life, it can be frustrating.

However, I am actively working on improving this because I’m worth the fight.

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I can relate to this more than you know. The past few years mainly last year. I had burnout then I felt like I couldn't move a fatigue a haze down to my bones. Last year was the worst. A few health conditions made me slow down and then I was left to feel everything at once. Numbing only works so long. I blamed menopause to be the catalyst for this. I am working through CPSTD from my childhood now I therapy. I realize how I try to run,hide fight, flight or freeze. I was in freeze for a while. The year went by and it was a blur. I feel like I've been waking up now, but sometimes I catch myself slipping back. I want to be there for my family and friends and myself. Thanks so much for your candid and vulnerable post. I think many of us have or had experienced that but we don't have a name for it

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Oh Jane, I just saw this and felt every word of it so deeply. I’m so glad we met. It’s comforting to know we aren’t alone! Thank you for sharing this!!!

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Thanks so much Lori. Separated at birth maybe 😉

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Great article. I've never heard of it referred to as "the flop" before. Super interesting. Sounds like you have a great therapist and that you've been doing tons of work. Thank you for sharing.

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Thank you so much, always a work in progress. This one was a long one now that I look back on it. 😳

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May 14·edited May 14Liked by Lori K

Yes. I dissociate. For sure. I have written many blog posts about it, too, and imported them to a Substack that is probably unwieldy. I am exhausted.

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I didn’t transport any from my websites. I’m just redoing some of them to post here in-between other things. Definitely keeps me on my toes. Trying to slow down for my mental health. Easier said than done sometimes.

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