Nestled between two pillows in my silent sanctuary, without moving a muscle, I say my morning prayers.
I begin to pull on the blankets that tangled around my feet over night, as I try to remember my dreams. Nothing comes up for me to overanalyze today.
Hoping to see a glimpse of the sun, I begin to open my eyes. I come to the conclusion that it's just too early to notice any light peaking through the curtains.
I then wonder how much longer I have before my waking hours begin. Before I pry myself from this horizontal utopia. Before the alarm blares its ugly pipes at me.
Suddenly I realize I have an opportunity to turn off that buzz kill of an alarm before it startles me. But I know if I pick up my phone, I’ll just start scrolling after I turn it off.
Carefully weighing the options of being startled or scrolling, I make the move for my glasses. Just as they’re on, the alarm screeches its ugly tunes at me sending my heart into hopscotch land.
Fumbling for my phone in the dark, I can’t get to it quick enough to silence my heart attack waiting to happen.
It’s off now, the danger my heart felt is slowly subsiding. I tell myself the words that my multiple therapists over the years have embedded into my brain…
I am safe.
I am okay.
It's a new day. I allow my body to stretch and believe it’s going to be a magical one.
Now, all I can think about is that sweet taste of roasted beans and honey that inevitably has my back every single morning, without fail.
Do you wake up before the alarm sends you into hopscotch land?
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Yes, brainstorm! Lol Or, you could use the handicap settings and have the Camara flash go off at the same time as the more gentle sounding alarm goes off and see if that works. I sleep with a sound machine, and several years ago when I worked early mornings there was a time or two where I didn't hear my alarm, and so I changed my settings on my phone to have the flash go off with the alarm, and that always woke me up!
99% of the time I wake up before the alarm goes off. But being highly sensitive, I startle and scare pretty easy, and so I learned choose alarms that aren't going to be so jarring because i hate waking up like tbat, lol - it's way too intense for my nervous system.
The one that I have been using for a long time now are chirping birds, and what's cool about it is that it gradually increases in sound as the alarm progresses. Although, it rarely makes it to that point unless I forget to turn it off, which I typically always do as soon as I wake up lol.